Intentions and inclinations.
i believe anyone with a prophetic gift struggles with where God’s word to them ends and their imagination begins and it is hard won wisdom and maturity to sort those things out to do our gifting well. The following is about the struggle at the intersection of our need to feel heard and have value, and giving away our bread to the poor while taking no credit.
Many times my phone rings,
most of the time i hear,
most often i know who it is,
most of the time i answer.
Sometimes my phone rings
i pretend to not hear,
i ignore and don’t answer,
i know i should,
but i don’t.
Oh, big lazy,
Just let it go to voice mail,
i know He’s faithful,
Hopefully
He will leave a message.
Occasionally i merely wish my phone would ring,
i wish it would ring,
really bad.
But the truth is, sometimes it isn’t ringing,
but i answer anyway,
“Hello! How are you?” I pretend.
i’ve gotten good at pretending,
pretending when the phone doesn’t ring,
Indenting a prayer so others will subtly note,
my pretended throne room conversation.
i do it so well, it causes people
to perceive and think,
his phone always rings. Oooo! Excuse me, is that the phone ringing as we speak?
i think others think “Wow!” i chuckle, and think,
When i see their reactions,
as people see through their own spiritual haze,
in my dreams i hear them say, “Wow, isn’t he amazing?!”
i can sound like i’ve got all to myself,
an incredible connection going on.
A better connection than anyone else, you know
It makes me kind of elite.
The truth is, though sad to say,
the truth is that i like that. i don’t like to like that, but it’s true.
Even worse, i think i need that.
How sad.
Don’t answer the phone,
Don’t pick up if it doesn’t ring.
Just leave it at peace
Even when we wish it would ring,
Really bad.
Our connection is real,
The Caller will call,
He will and we know He does.
But don’t answer the phone
if it didn’t ring.
Don’t pretend the call,
Don’t make a face.
Just so you can say, “He called”
or say, “I heard”
Just so you can say, “I know”.
So i sit here waiting,
Waiting in the hall.
Maybe the phone will ring,
Because i don’t know what to do,
At all.
I actually have a vision,
Which i don’t know how to do.
Maybe the phone will ring,
Waiting for the phone to ring,
i’m sure the phone will ring,
How ’bout you?
i’m Social Porter for Living In His Name Ministries.